... But now I'm just making excuses
. Hrmm... Maybe i'll go ahead with my plan. I mean, it doesn't really matter what she says does it? There are other prospects that have already arisen. But... but... but ... I've just got to make sure I plan it right, that's all. No one else can be around, no audience. That would just kill it! But I only get to see her once a week, and I can't control people THAT much! Hrmm... I've got to get this right. I just have to make sure there isn't an audience. I mean, my plan could end in a pretty nice first kiss with her. Just as long as there's no audience... And she might not even COME! She doesn't always come to Youth Group. Then that could just blow the thing right out of the water. These school weeks seem like MONTHS! Damn... hrmm... err... ugh... must. well, I'll prepare for it anyway. If she doesn't come, then I'll call her and make her feel bad just like she did to me when I didn't go, but in a cute way like she did. I don't know how to project "cute" over the phone though. I can't smile over the phone, that doesn't work. There aren't emoticons I can use... hrmm... cute, how to project cute... I'll have to think about this one 
. But I just had the best time. She was bumping into me, and asked me to hold the bathroom door for her (I held EVERY single door for it. It's kind of a joke, although I really am the most polite 17 year old in the USA 
), told me to never lose my manners because she really liked them, all kinds of stuff. She was playing games on my PocketPC too, that was so funny. But so much stuff happened I can't tell you all of it. Suffice it to say, I had more fun in the last 18 hours than I had in the last two months at school (we go to different schools).