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[Paul]

[James S]

[Paul]

oh man, not again.

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well I am starting to fit a bit better, but it is hard moving home and not having my own place and the city. I can eat a bit now, but I still have nightmares about her and other guys when I am sleeping. She wont take my calls so I have given up on calling. The hardest part is that I just feel like I wont find anyone like her again. Even my previous girlfriends did not match up. I was able to find someone with great looks who was not into drugs, clubbing, parties and just liked ovies and was low key like I was. I feel now that it will be hard to find that again especially at my age (23). I am out of college so I can no longer meet girls that way and I am still too young for women that are 25 to 28, as I have nothing to offer them job wise and they are looking to settle down. Also I am too old to date young girls in high school, and I would not want to anyway as they will probably "grow out of me" just like renee did. She was only 17 when I met her and now she is 19 and even though she said its because I mistreated her (which I did to an extent) I cant help but think it was also partly because she wanted to see what else was out there for her. Everyone tells me at her age even if I did treat her okay, eventually she would have felt like she did not get to live her college years, but that doesnt comfort me much. Another problem was that I made her and my best friend my whole life and now I am left to pick up the pieces and scrounge for all friends, many of whom now have thier own lives and girlfriends and are not so willing to take me back with open arms after shutting them out for two years. It is just so hard for me to be alone. I always need someone, and when I wake up I was so used to her being there and now she is not. I keep wanting to go to the apartment and see if there is a guy there with her, or if my "friend" is there. But I know that would drive me nuts and I dont think that seeing her in person would change her mind. especially if she wont even answer the phone. I just dont know what to do.

[James S]

Man, just realize it's over okay. I'm sorry, I really am. But you can't call her, and what would going to see her in person do? What, you might go psycho and do something stupid! She's not a part of your life now, but just because she isn't doesn't mean your life is over. Far from it. Just be glad she did this now instead of later and not waste more of your life. I know it's heard right now, but this is a learning experience, even at your age.

I'm glad you're feeling better and I hope the trend continues. But what you need to do is just settle back in with your parents and learn to be able to put your trust in them so you can always have them to talk to if you need them. I'm assuming, anyway, that your parents are good, caring people. Don't worry about women for a while. You don't need a woman constantly at your side. But all you can do now is, as you said, "pick up the pieces," and keep going. There will always be more friends and women, as long as you want to take the time and effort to do social stuff and be willing to meet people. But I really doubt now is the time for that. Always plan ahead for the future, though. Invision yourself five years from now, where do you want to be? And really think about this. Invisioning your goal is the first step to going through with it and succeeding in it.

[Paul]

moose, stop stating the obvious. the guy KNOWS all this he just loved her. what are ya gonna do? he cant switch it off even if he knows its not the right way to be right now.

i'm exactly the same way man. the only way i'll get girlfriends is through university because without that i wont meet any. so i hope i get in or i'm fucked.

oh yeah, whats this 'mistreatment' crap? you're a nice guy arent you?

edit: hang on, shes 19 now? so you've been with her for two years? i thought you said 4 last time. odd. they always want the older man dont they. grr.

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